Happy Mother's Day!

Being a mom is, by far, the hardest thing I've ever done. Today started off really rough and by the time our M-day celebration was about to start with my own mother & mother-in-law, I felt sick to my stomach from anxiety and worry about Sophia refusing to sleep and everything being chaotic and my apparent inability to just "get on top" of my life these days.

But, after some time and a bit of encouragement from my mamas and lots of thoughtfulness and love from my hubby, and lastly, Sophia finally sleeping for awhile - I'm feeling better.

So, the journey continues and hopefullly each day I'll become one tiny iota more patient and more confident until one day I start to feel like maybe I'm an ok mama after all. I sure do love my girl, I can say that. She's pretty much the best thing I've ever seen and I hope she knows that.

Happy Mother's Day Mamas, enjoy your day, cause goodness knows it's a REAL job ;)

Politically Incorrect

I used to be one of those academic elite who knew what was correct to care about, but I've recently realized that I have become politically incorrect. It's not that I don't want equality or environmental health or an end to wars. Of course, I do. It's just that my mind is all aflutter with mommy-dom.

You say environmentalism, I think of breastfeeding and cloth diapers, cleaning green in the home, avoiding plastics in my daughters day, being careful about when/which vaccinations to give her.

You say feminism, I think of birth, ICAN/ preventing unnecessary c-sections, and getting high profile celebs to stop having elective c-sections.

You say end wars, stop being the world's police and I think about being a stay at home mom, responding sensitively to my children's needs and maintaining peace and civility in my own home.

So, I guess I have come off of the world scene in most ways. I don't read the right books & articles or travel to the right countries anymore. I haven't seen the right films or debated the right issues over fair trade coffee. I'm just a little suburban housewife building a big world piece by piece for a little person.

Sophia purred today...

My little sweetheart used to do this all the time when she was brand new. She'd just purr in her sleep when we held or touched her. She hasn't done it in a long time now though since she is a big girl :).

But today she purred while I petted her in her sleep and I hope I never forget these sweet little moments with her.